Back Where I Belong...

Can I just say how good it feels to be back home? How good it feels that I'm where I belong? How good life just is?...*sigh*



I am one day away from having my first full week complete at MSU and it's been nothing but awesome {well, as awesome as school can get}. A few highlights:

~My very first experience with a professor was learning that she was a "Facebook lovin', Nelly singin' fool"

~I am actually interested in learning in all of my classes...I said learning, NOT all the homework and test associated with that...just wanted to clarify ;)

~I see people I actually know and can stop and have a little chat with on my way to and from classes

~I may have gotten lost the first day of classes in Glass, but I found my way to and from the Bookstore

~I didn't get called on in my BusLaw class...which was especially good considering I didn't read. Whoops!

~Heard the best pick-up line: "Is anyone sitting here? I have horrible eyes."



It may just be that today has been a really good day, but I don't care. I'm on top of the world and no one can make me fall.

I can finally breath again...

Oook. I messed up this one. Why did I move away from my life?!
Because I thought I wasn't content.
I was looking for more.
I feel like it was that whole "I was sent a car, a boat, and helicopter" joke. I was just looking for the bigger, better picture.
But I feel stuck. The transition from home to OSU wasn't easy, but it happened. I felt nothing but warmness and welcoming arms from all the girls and my friends in the house. My classes were quick and easy and the profs were funny. Yet, still I was not happy. I felt like a made a big mistake. The grass is not always greener on the other side.

So that's it. I'm moving forward and not looking back. And I feel the bricks lifted away!

I start MSU tomorrow annnnd I love my schedule I just hope all my classes and profs work out!

Fall Open House at Baglady is this weekend!!! I am soo excited :) I painted tables today and we rearranged the whole stinkin store, but it was worth it. It inspired me to redecorate my apartment and surprise my roommate when she returns...I really hope she likes it! I stained an entertainment shelf to match her dinning room set and added cream and toupe colored blocks with an iron grid in the middle...lots of fall folliage and some candles of course! I'll post pictures when I get it finished but it's super cute...in my mind :)

I guess I have a bedtime now that school's back...well at least I should get to bed at a decent hour. Maybe...

O-S-U...Cowboys!

Soo I am a Cowgirl...again! I can't believe I'm starting this process, but I have regretted not finishing what I started there almost everyday.

It all started Friday when my mom and I went for our 3 mile walk. A lot happens on these walks, they are sacred and refreshing...not to mention a total hiney kicker ;) We talk shop, life, love, family, dogs (we love our pups), and our dreams. Sometimes I slide in a request or two which is what I had intended on doing this particular time. I had seen this old wooden desk I wanted to restore and use in my room, but I needed a little support from mommy and daddy to make it until my next paycheck. Little did I know that when we returned from our walk not only would I not be getting this beautiful desk, but I was compiling a list of names and numbers to contact to re-enroll at Oklahoma State. I was...well, I was a lot of things. I was nervous about telling my roommate whom I've come to love and find a unique friendship with and my favorite teacher..I mean friend, HEATHER, that I was moving out and away. I was pumped to tell Hal, Shelby, and Kelsi I was BACK! I was super sad to leave my mom and the store that I practically run. Most of all I was scared and upset to be leaving my MSU family I had come to know and love this past year.

I would not change my time away in any way shape or form. I know that these friendships I am leaving for the time being will be here no matter what I am doing. These are my friends through the good and the bad, the near and the far. They have all proved that very fact to be by being here this last week I have and supporting me fully and inderstanding my decision. I do not want them to think I am leaving because I do not enjoy being in Springfield, because that is not the case at all! I need to do this for myself as selfish as that sounds, but who wants to live with a regret that's changable?

I honestly want and need to do this for myself, but I continuously was asking "Why would I uproot my perfect life here?" I had a job, babysitting families, a mentor, allllllllll my friends, my MOTHER, my family...the list goes on. But what I was missing was having that experience I wanted from OSU and being able to go back and succeed this time. God started opening doors Saturday morning so I went with my gut and pressed on.

I am still in the process of finalizing everything, but fingers crossed and heart in prayer I know that whatever is suppose to be will be...